small

I've been holdin' my stomach in for so long
Don't even notice I'm doin' it anymore
I work out hard, seven days a week
But I don't feel any differently

I wonder if I'll ever change
I don't think I can live this way

I wake up hatin' my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?

Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed
I'm killin' myself, but I don't think it's helpin' at all
Tryin' to be small
Oh, oh, oh

Walk over me and I take it so politely
'Cause I still care what they think and if they like me
I used to smile and show my teeth
Now I don't smile at anything

I wonder if I'll ever change
I, I don't wanna be this way

I wake up hatin' my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?

Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed
I'm killin' myself, but I don't think it's helpin' at all
Tryin' to be

Everything that makes me sad, a therapist, a punchin' bag
Wish I could eat and not feel bad, swear I'm gonna scream
No one's ever listenin', and they don't care it's killin' me
As long as I can fuckin' sing, then life is a dream

But I wake up hatin' my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?

Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Bitin' my tongue so much it's gonna bleed
I'm killin' myself, but I don't think it's helpin' at all
I'm killin' myself, and I don't think it's healthy at all
Tryin' to be small