Upside Down

I was young, suffocated by mismatched dreams
I was dumb, it's just too late for excuses, yeah
Feels like it left my hands, can't go back
It's gone, blame on me

I don't wanna go, I don't wanna fall, hold back
I don't have the courage to face myself in the mirror
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna fall, hold back

Everything is upside down, I just want a life
It's not easy, everything is still the same
Can I rise again? Changed my whole lifetime
Everything is upside down, I just want a life
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

The dirty blacklist I wrote myself
I was sick, no doubt, it was intense
Through it all, wandering like a mess
After it's all over, it's already useless

I want to be erased from this world
No, I don't want to be completely forgotten
I want to disappear without a trace
No, I want to live once more
I want to live again

Everything is upside down, I just want a life
It's not easy, everything is still the same
Can I rise again? Changed my whole lifetime
Everything is upside down, I just want a life
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Can't avoid it, changed my whole lifetime
Everything is upside down, I just want a life
Yeah, yeah, yeah