Onderweg

I close the door
Streets seem to cry
Clouds seem to flee
I step onto the bus
People seem to watch

But I want to avoid them
Before they see me
It's been a long time ago
That you didn't forget my birthday
You chose me unconditionally

I see the fields
Houses passing by
It's quiet behind the windows
Who can see me
In blue-lit trains
Your heart is so close to me
But it doesn't beat

It's been a long time ago
Your black hair and your smile
That you were the whole world to me
It still runs too deep in me
That I could share what you had
You ran your fingers through my hair and said

You don't know my voice
Who I am is what you see now
Do you want to dance with illusions
In thoughts
Are you beyond the present
Do you want to return to your past
Does that mean something to you

It's been a long time ago
Red wine on the terrace
That you were the whole world to me
It still runs too deep in me
But I forgot how you saw me
That I am so different from you

I walk into the street
But it will never warm me
Because it cannot embrace me
Who would see me
I would love to scream
I would love to scream endlessly
But it doesn't work

You are not only mine
I can show the world
That it's perhaps better this way
It's been a long time ago
That I forgot how you saw me
That I am so different from you