loving you is

Used to love it when we'd fight like grown ups
You made me hate myself so I could love us
It's funny when I think about it all now
You'd point out all the ways that I was fucked up
You'd say that I'm so lucky you're a good one
It's funny when I think about it all now

Gave you every part of me
You don't know what you can't see

Loving you is difficult, irrational
You hate when I'm emotional, manipulative
I feel like shit with everything I try to give
I let you rip me all to shreds
I'm scared to make the same mistakes again (again, again)

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself
I always chose your mental health
And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself
I let you rip me all to shreds
And I won't make the same mistake again (again, again, again)

I was just a kid and you knew that
It didn't take you much to make me feel bad
You made me do some things that I can't take back
And I can't stand that

I gave you every part of me
But you don't know what you can't see

Loving you is difficult, irrational
You hate when I'm emotional, manipulative
I feel like shit with everything I try to give
I let you rip me all to shreds
I'm scared to make the same mistakes again (again, again)

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself
I always chose your mental health
And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself
I let you rip me all to shreds
And I won't make the same mistake again
Again, again, again

I feel bad for the next girl
Who thinks that you can change
I feel bad for the next girl that you beg to stay
I feel bad for the next girl
Who's gonna feel this way
Who's gonna feel this way

Loving you is difficult, irrational
I hate that it's so personal
Manipulative, I feel like shit
With all the love I try to give
I let you rip me all to shreds
I'm scared to make the same mistake again
Again again again

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself
I always chose your mental health
And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself
I let you rip me all to shreds
And I won't make the same mistake again