Shout Baby

The scent of your hair is different
I'm frustrated, I'm being swayed
My lips relax, I quietly sink into my scarf

Since when did I become
So patient like this?
Even though I was mocked as a crybaby since childhood

"Keep it a secret,"
What a cruel word
My shouts fade away
The ordinary future seems so far away

I know without asking
It won't reach that person
Where should I go?
I don't know, I just cling on
The longing that burns my heart
Won't disappear enough to erase my daily anxieties
I want to change

Because I'm the type
To always put things off
Even with a slight connection
I wanted to protect it forever

If I keep it a secret
It's like it never existed
It's not a small feeling
That I can just forget, you know?

By the time dawn breaks again
I only wear my serious face
Because that's all I had
I'm bewildered by something for the first time
The person who fills my heart
Enough to erase the boring time
Is no longer

I didn't want to know this
I wish I had done that back then
It's such a fragile thing
But I wanted to affirm myself
It felt like I was doing something wrong
I felt pathetic
But everything was the first time
I still wanted to believe

I know without asking
That person won't bring happiness
But what that person gave me
Wasn't nothing at all
The sly lies that were so delightful
They won't disappear enough to erase my daily anxieties
I want to change

itsumo to chigau kami no nioi
odorasarete shimau kuyashii na
yurunde shimau kuchimoto mafuraa ni sotto shizumeta

itsukara watashi konna fuu ni
gaman tsuyoku nareteita ndarou
kodomo no koro kara nakimushi datte baka ni sareta no ni

naisho ni shite ite ne
nante zankoku na kotoba
sakebigoe kasunde ku
arifureteru hazu no mirai ni wa tookute

dare ni kikazu tomo wakaru
aitsu no moto ni wa todoki wa shinai
doko ni tadoritsukeba ii?
wakaranakute tada sugaritsuite
mainichi no fuan wo kakikesu hodo
mune wo kogasu akogare nado kienai
kawaritai

nandemo sugu ni
atomawashi ni shite shimau you na watashi dakara
wazuka na tsunagari dake demo
zutto mamoritakatta

naisho ni shite itara
atte mo nai you na mono da ne
wasurete shimaeru hodo
chippoke na omoi de wa nai yo wakatteru?

yoru ga akeru koro ni mata
majime na sugata dake mini tsukete
datte sore shika nakatta no
hajimete no koto ni tomado tteru
taikutsu na jikan wo kakikesu hodo
mune wo shimeru aitsu nante
mou
mou

konna mono shiritakunakatta
ano toki aa sureba yokatta
konna ni moroi mono dakedo
jibun wo koutei shitakatta
warui koto wo shiteru you de
jibun ga nasakenakatta
dakedo subete hajimete de
mada shinjite itakatta

dare ni kikazu tomo wakaru
aitsu wa shiawase wo kure wa shinai
soredemo aitsu ga kureta mono
nani mo nakatta wake ja nai kara
mainichi no fuan wo kakikesu hodo
zurui uso ga ureshikute kienai
kawaritai