Shoka

I want to die, I want to die, but clinging to that means nothing
I don't know that everything with form will come to an end
At the bottom, drunkenly, with these messy lyrics as they are
There are lives I can't save

Hurting, hurting, am I trying to be rewarded?
"Can I become happy?"
Once again intoxicated by the early summer breeze
I end up singing about my conceited self
I don't know the right answer, so
Tell me, tell me!

The words I loved have been destroyed
Even though I believed they'd be rewarded someday
This voice I've piled up is incorrect in this world
"I hate that face of yours that knows nothing"
Tens, hundreds, thousands of times
I want to die

I, I, I was foolish, in a puddle-filled miniature garden
To close the wound, I repeat self-gratification, an amazed profile
Even if I line up words more beautiful than dreams before dawn
The fireworks in the city wither beautifully

I'm not there after the festival

The words I couldn't say overflow and won't stop
Even if my wishes come true, nothing changes
The promises we made someday are forgotten
I can't be held back, here I am alone
Thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of millions of times
Won't you kill me

If ethics create reason
Is this hoarse voice justice?
If righteousness always becomes kindness
Tell me, tell me
Tell me, answer!

That person I loved won't save me anymore
Even though I believed they'd be rewarded someday

The future I once painted has long become the past
"I don't know anything," so I sing here
Tens, hundreds, thousands of times
I breathe
Thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of millions of times
I shouted

shinitai shinitai tte sugattetatte nan ni mo imi nai na
boku wa shiranain da katachi aru mono subete ni owari ga kuru koto
saitei, meitei de, ari no mama no, muchakucha na kashi de wa
sukuenai inochi ga ikutsu mo aru

kizutsukete, kizutsukete mukuwareyou to shite iru no ka?
"shiawase ni nareru!" to ka?
shoka no kaze ni mata ya yowasarete
unuboreta jiga o utatte shimau
tadashii kotae ga wakaranai, dakara
oshiete oshiete!

sukidatta kotoba wa kowasarete shimaimashita
itsuka mukuwareru to shinjite ita noni
tsumiageta kono koe wa kono sekai no fuseikai da
"nani mo shiranai sono kao ga kirai"
nanjukkai nanbyaku nanzenkai datte
shinitain da

boku wa boku wa, boku wa baka datta mizutaru hakoniwa
kizuguchi o fusagu tame ni mata ji o kurikaesu akireta yokogao
yoake mae no yume yori kirei na kotoba o narabetemo
utsukushiku kareru tokai no hanabi

soko ni boku wa inai ato no matsuri

ienakatta kotoba ga afuredashite tomaranai na
nozomi o kanaetemo kawaryashinakute
itsu no hi ni ka kawashita yakusoku wa wasurerarete
hikitomerarezu, koko ni wa hitori
nanzankai nanman nanokukai datte
koroshite kurenai ka

rinri ga dori o tsukuru no nara
kareta kono koe wa seigi na no?
tadashisa ga tsune ni yasashisa ni naru nara
oshiete oshiete
oshiete kotaete!

sukidatta ano hito wa mou boku o sukuwanai na
itsuka mukuwareru to shinjite ita noni

itsu no hi ni ka egaita mirai wa tou ni kako ni natte
"nani mo shiranai" dakara, koko de utau
nanjukkai nanbyaku nanzenkai datte
iki o shite wa
nanzankai nanman nanokukai datte
sakendanda