(how could i be)honest?

can't fake the old days
there's another way
but another haze awaits
i can't just let myself go

自分だって
救えなくて
無駄だって
やめられなくて
泥まみれ
だから見つけて欲しいの

help me
i wish i could be bleeding
so you could see the pain
you could feel the pain inside me

waiting
im always waiting for something
something out of reach
something that will never come back

how could i be honest?
cuz i just broke my promise
in this place where everything happened

how could i be honest
when i don't know myself?
overthinking's making me so helpless

driving through Chicago
then something felt so alive
i wanted to dive

the same thing again and again
im always drowning in the pain
but i know i can't get over this now

help me
i wish i could be bleeding
so you could see the pain
you could feel the pain inside me

waiting
im always waiting for something
something out of reach
something that will never come back

how could i be honest?
cuz i just broke my promise
in this place where everything happened

how could i be honest
when i don't know myself?
overthinking's making me so helpless

take me home
it's getting cold here
the lights don't glow the same since
you disappeared

take me home
it's getting cold here
the lights don't glow the same since
you disappeared