擬態

Words that spilled out Mourning ideals and reality
Still hiding them, just playing dumb with these crazy emotions
I didn't want to see them, surely I wanted to cling to them
A monologue of self-love and self-denial

Tucking them away, locking them up
I felt like they were gone

Living like there's a substitute
I can't see, can't see, can't see anything
Terrified and frozen still
Shallow breaths won't do
So that my wishes, vows, and thoughts aren't hidden

They won't disappear, even if I hide them, they won't disappear
I have the resolve but can't say it
Searching but still unsolved
Painful domination, mimicry
They won't disappear, even if I hide them, they won't disappear
I have the resolve but can't say it
Searching but still unsolved

I can't shake it off
Holding abundant hopes and inferiority
Trying to mend with breaking pieces
Like muddy water
Scooping it just makes it dirtier
Chasing an uncertain destination

Even being confined here
Isn't what I wished for

Since I won't be noticed even if I hide
I want to disappear, disappear, become invisible
I want to be forgotten
I want to not be remembered
Forever, forever, forever
Living like there's a substitute
I can't, can't, I just can't
Still with a trembling voice, still with my broken self
Realizing my true heart

They won't disappear, even if I hide them, they won't disappear
I have the resolve but can't say it
Searching but still unsolved
Painful domination, mimicry
They won't disappear, even if I hide them, they won't disappear
I have the resolve but can't say it
Searching but still unsolved

kobore dashita kotoba nageiteru risou to genjitsu kan ni
kakushita mama da na toboke tada ke no kurutta kanjou nante
mitaku mo nakattan da kitto sugatte itakattan da
jikoai to jikohitei no hitorigokko

shimaikonde wa kagi kakete wa
nakunatta ki ga shite itan da

kawari demo iru you na ikikata ja
mienai, mienai, nani mo mienai
osorete wa sukunda mama da
otoshita kokyuu ja dame da
negai o chikai o omoi o kakusanu you ni

kienai kakushitattte kienai
omoi tatte ienai
saguriatte mikai
itai shihai gitai
kienai kakushitattte kienai
omoi tatte ienai
saguriatte mikai

furihodokenai n da
yutaka na kibou to rettoukan o
kakaeta mama da na kowarete iku hahen de toritsukurotta
nigotta mizu mitai da
sukutte wa yogorete iku dake datta
fukakutei no yukusaki o oikakekko

koko ni komotte iru no datte
nozonda koto de wa nakute

kakurete mo kidzukarenai mama da kara
kietai, kietai, mienaku naritai
wasurerarete shimaitai
omoidasa renaku naritai
zutto zutto zutto
kawari demo iru you na ikikata ja
dekinai, dekinai, dekiyashinai kara
furueteru koe no manma da kowareta jibun no mama da
kidzuite shimatta hontou no kokoro ni

kienai kakushitattte kienai
omoi tatte ienai
saguriatte mikai
itai shihai gitai
kienai kakushitattte kienai
omoi tatte ienai
saguriatte mikai